i'll preface this post by admitting that i'm one of those weirdos who actually enjoyed school. mainly that's probably because (in the words of one of my professors) i am/was "good at" school (to be clear, he said [and i am saying] this intending it at least partially as a roast).
i miss school! not even just college, which was great, but being in school in general. i love learning about new subjects and also having near-constant required assignments across many disciplines is the best/only way to keep skills across many disciplines up to snuff.
i've been working in software for about a year and a half at this point (ew), and as i was editing another blog post, i noticed that it felt like writing a more formal/essay-style piece was much, much harder than it was in college. it's not just that i didn't know what to say or something -- i think i had just about as good of an idea of that as i did when i wrote essays before -- it's more that i found it harder to buckle down and focus on the act of writing. it struck me really hard, i think, because i've always considered myself a strong-ish writer and someone who generally enjoys writing.
maybe i'll try to write more formally or seriously on this blog then. something i've been trying to work on as a pseudo-resolution for 2021 is making goals and being better at holding myself accountable for achieving (or at least attempting to achieve) them. to be frank, since graduation, i feel personally like i've sort of fallen off as the dilettante i envision myself as being (or wanting to be). but ultimately, it's unsurprising! it turns out that what you spend your time doing matters quite a bit, and it just so happens that i've spent the majority of my time this past year coding. i've definitely become better at that! i also notice as i'm typing this post that i've become a much better typist. so fwiw, i guess all is not completely lost.
if there's anything to take away from this, i guess i'm becoming more starkly aware that i've departed (for now!) the land of academia and transitioned into the "real world." it turns out that the things i was good at in school were things that i did a lot in school, and the things i'm good at now, i'm good at because i do them a lot. in other words, mindfulness counts!
anyway, sending good, mindful vibes your way. i've been journaling daily and hopefully will blog more and those writing skills will come flying back!
