Friday, March 22, 2024

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3GhoWZ5qTwI

I'm still obsessed after all these years with the smiths

Sunday, February 18, 2024

Monday, January 29, 2024

mayeb

 Plants may flower, some may wilt

the cockroaches remain

* * *

dreams become reality, or don’t,

 the real will always be there for us

till we give back the time we’ve loaned

and all the solid becomes rust



Tuesday, January 16, 2024

april

 im so happy to become who i have and to keep becoming,

but im losing what i was, and i can't help but feel that pain.

Saturday, January 6, 2024

Years later

 What makes you love a person?

What constitutes love?

What about you did I love?

What justifies pain?

Am I responsible for your pain?

Do you even realize what pain you’ve caused me?

Would you ever?

Or would you prefer to keep living in your own world,

caught in an endless flow of nightmares.


* * *


No one will ever know and who can ever judge

All we can do with the past is leave it be, move on

And the most justice we can do is to avoid repeating

the same harm that we’ve caused or felt before.


* * *


Did I love you?

How far is a light year?

Tuesday, November 14, 2023

reads donna tartt and goes to yale once

 https://poetrysociety.org/poems/with-rue-my-heart-is-laden


With rue my heart is laden

For golden friends I had,

For many a rose-lipt maiden

And many a lightfoot lad.


By brooks too broad for leaping

The lightfoot boys are laid;

The rose-lipt girls are sleeping

In fields where roses fade.

Sunday, November 12, 2023

“Epigraph” [7/19/23, 21:25]

the past had a meaning that will always define you. I remember this as being the first moment as an adult when I realized how powerful memory was. Or at least, it was the first time it hurt the most.


And also realizing there was nothing I could do about the pain of the past: it just settled over me. [My memories] were a part of my life that happened, and now they were gone. That was all. No one else knew about it, no one cared.


The Shards (Serial), Bret Easton Ellis